The Night before Pro Tour Aetherdrift

It still feels like an event horizon. It’s hard to imagine the thing I’ve been thinking about nonstop for a month (& that’s the understated version) will happen tomorrow and there will be a match record at the end of it. I care about this so much it’s a little silly, and that’s the best part - the privilege to care, to put your all into something that’s difficult enough that it might not work out. I had the privilege to do that again and I hope to have it again in the future.

This PT prep process was different in uncomfortable and difficult ways - more teammates, less direction, higher stress, higher chaos - but along with that came confidence and resourcefulness I hadn’t seen myself show before. I can’t say it didn’t push me, but that’s what we want out of these things, right? To grow, to try, to struggle. I also can’t say I haven’t once again given it my all. That’s something I will never take for granted.

I want this to go well - so badly. But the time to try and control that through high-strung effort has passed. Now’s the time to experience it, to see myself put everything out there on the field and let the chips fall where they may.

Let’s do this.

Thanks for caring too ❤️

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